I'm in a Funk....

Well, lately I have been in a little bit of a funk. Unfortunately, I am having difficulties with my thyroid again. This, most likely, is the cause of my fatigue, anxiety, and depression.

A little history on my thyroid issues:

About 5 years ago, I was diagnosed with cysts on my thyroid. My doctor at the time told me that he couldn't remove them, but that I needed to have an MRI done every couple of years to make sure that they don't get worse. Turns out that they can grow larger, even becoming tumors and cancerous.

Well, due to not having insurance, I have yet to get my thyroid checked since. A few weeks ago, I was having issues with fatigue and nausea, as well as having anxiety attacks. The doctor did numerous tests, thinking it could be my gallbladder or pancreas. I got my tests back this week, and everything was clean. (Which is great!) But, knowing my medical history, he thinks my thyroid is causing my symptoms and he wants to do an MRI scan. It's going to cost $200 +, and frankly, I don't have the money. I'm currently looking for a job so that I can hopefully save the money and get the scan done in the near future. But, honestly, not many places are hiring right now. So, in the meantime, I feel crappy and get to worry about whether or not I have thyroid cancer.

I'm trying to exercise and eat healthy and not get too stressed out, to help alleviate some of my symptoms. Hopefully the exercise will help some, but I think the stress will be around no matter what. Which is bad, because that's the worse thing for me....but, what am I gonna do...?

Speaking of exercising, I met with a personal trainer today. Ok, he's a friend of mine, but he's legit. He just got his personal training certification and he needed a couple of guinea pigs to get him experience. So, the first month is free, then I get a discounted rate thereafter. The CMM 1/2 is in 8 weeks, so we are training for that (he is an Ironman, so this is his specialty) and we are doing some core workouts as well. I'm hoping that this will help me get back to that size I so desperately want to be again....I mean, it's only a few inches, and about 10 lbs....but it's always those vanity pounds that are the hardest to lose. And me being a petite girl to begin with, one can really tell that I have gained weight.

So, here's to trying to get back to that happy size and it helping to relieve some stress so that my thyroid can calm itself while I try and find the money to make it better!

-jleigh